Mid life crises ?

I can never find the time to post the things i want, then when I do find the time i figure i have nothing worth posting! My last post was in may so i am long over do.. I think I'm going threw some mid life crises ordeal. I'm not sure how it works but i have found myself looking at my life and wondering whats my story...When i die what will people say about me. how will i be remembered, if I'm remembered at all. And the only answer I come up with is : She was my babysitter . As glorified as that sounds I'm not sure I'm content with that.~ I wish there was more. So Ive decided to change my story..where exactly will it go is a mystery for all of us..To Be Continued!I wonder if my thoughts are due to my age or is it because i have realized that in 5 yrs Shaiyen will be graduating high school , in 11yrs Gabe will be graduating...What then , who will i take care of ? i REALLY believe i will have a bad case of empty nest syndrome..With that being said I got a new tattoo, its Chinese symbols & orchid flowers down my spine. It stands for smelly fish butt prostitute! ha ha just kidding, it means family, strength,
love, Harmony & happiness. Ron graduates truck driving school July 17th, Shaiyen had to have a graft done on her lower gums (In her mouth),Bailey turned 11. Both girls have started cheer leading practice & Gabriel well he's just as wild as before. I'm really surprised he hasn't broke any bones!